It's Been a While...

...but as it's late I must be brief and leave the catch up 'til another time. Today has been a sombre afffair for me, a day of somewhat unwelcome introspection that has stirred up negative feelings I'd assumed to be long buried. Not so, it would seeem, for my need to be liked - to be understood, even - is still there, languishing quietly just beneath the surface. As with most things, however, such periods of introspection can yield positive results, and I believe I have at least come to terms with one thing today - namely that you can't hold onto the past; things change, people change, so instead of trying to fight it sometimes it's best to just accept it and move on. People that once were close to you might not be close anymore, but rather than see it as a personal slight, it's better to think of it in the way that my best friend puts it: "Not everyone can be your number 1, therefore you can't be everyone's number 1 either." How true that is. And, when you think about it, any person that can say with absolute conviction they are somebody's number 1 (as I can) is a very lucky person indeed.